Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Torn Again


I took a class on human biology in college and loved it. It was a combination anthropology, biology, and psychology class. One day the professor walked in and his first question to the class was, "At what point, in the gestation of a human, does human life actually begin?" He proceeded to ask us to raise our hand if we thought a human baby was a human life. Of course, the whole class raised their hands. Then he asked if we thought a 39-week old fetus was a human life. Only one person in the class did not raise his hand. I remember thinking, "Wow. I can't believe that that guy thinks that a baby about to be born is not a human life!"  The questions continued , each time the number of weeks getting smaller. What about a 7 month old fetus?  Is it a human life? It was interesting to see people's responses.  As the number of weeks in the question decreased so did the number of hands going up.  He got to two months. Is that human life? Several hands were still up in the air.  Finally, he got to conception.  Are a blob of cells human life? Only one person had his hand up in the air and it wasn't me.  

I think back on that day frequently. It made a big impression on me that there were such varied opinions on this matter within my own classmates, whom I regarded as being very progressive. A few months ago, when the Obama administration announced that it would reverse the policy on stem cell research that the Bush administration had sponsored, I started thinking about those questions again. This time, however, with very many years of life experience behind me. Now I think I would be one of the people whose hand would be up when asked about human life beginning at conception. Not because of religious beliefs, but simply because biology dictates it.

The stem cell research ban that Obama just lifted allows scientists to conduct research on leftover human embryos that were created in vitro for fertilization purposes. The research is usually conducted when the embryo is five days old. At that point, a human embryo consists of 120-150 cells. In the past, the embryo was destroyed as part of the research process. However, now researchers have figured out how to not harm the embryo. If you look at the picture above, it in no way resembles a human, but still I feel very, very queasy about the idea that we are tinkering with a human life. Again, not because it has anything to do with religious beliefs, but because to me it seems that there is no question that biologically-speaking, human life begins at conception.  

How do scientists define something as being "alive?"  Kids, in Texas, learn that in kindergarten. For something to be alive, it needs to 1) grow and change,  2) reproduce (have offspring),  3) require energy (eat, breathe, etc.),  4) be composed of 1 cell or more (have a highly organized structure), and 5) respond to stimuli (e.g., move).  Based on this definition, a human embryo is definitely alive then.  

I understand the plethora of benefits that can be achieved by studying stem cells.  Stem cells are the cells that help us heal. It is possible that scientists might find cures for many debilitating illnesses because of this research. But how can one ethically justify using a human life to experiment? What happens to the embryos after the research? Are they allowed to develop into fetuses and eventually full-blown babies? Do the ends really justify the means? Can anyone ever really answer that question? 

TTYL.

Monday, March 9, 2009

Torn

I am so torn about going back to work.  IK is still so little.  She will be two in June.  But I will have been out of the workforce exactly five years at the end of April.  I should just stick with my plan to do some consulting, especially because IK is scheduled to go to preschool in the fall  two days a week.  Or should I wait until she is three?  This is so hard.  Two days a week is not that much time away from her, but still, it's time away that I will never have back with her. 

She is at the cutest stage where she is learning to talk.  Every day she says a new word. yesterday's word was  "Nati."  She says it so clearly now.  She also is a bilingual baby so she can understand and speak both languages.  Will I be able to continue that when she starts school?  I don't see why not, right?  I can still speak to her in Spanish only like I have been doing.  And her school is a very nice one.  It is a Waldorf-oriented.  They have a beautiful garden where the children spend most of their time.  They grow their own herbs and use them in the bread they bake.  They water the plants themselves.  Most kids who attend do not watch TV at home. Lunches need to be healthy.  No one is allowed to wear clothes with TV or cartoon characters on it.  No one yells at the children.  They call them by ringing a bell or by singing. The best part is that the school celebrates all the holidays it seems so they get an early introduction to different cultures.  
N and D are not too excited about me going back to work.  Will we have a nice sitter they ask? Will we have to stay late at school with Dad every day?  Who is going to help us with our homework?  Who is going to take us to after school activities?  Will we still be able to have play dates after school?  Who is going to make us dinner? 

I am sure David and I can figure our routines and schedules.  We've done it before.  Not with three children but with two.  Maybe I am just scared of starting the actual process.  I am not sure what I am scared of: missing out on my kids' life?  taking a job I might not enjoy?  not being able to be involved as much in my children's education?  

I don't know.

But I need to figure this out soon!  

TTYL.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Why I can never get projects done

Today went like this:

7:30 a.m. Wake up and jump in the shower
8:00 a.m. Check facebook before driving Isabella to the doctor
8:45 a.m. Finally see doctor!
9:00 a.m. Arrive home
9:30 a.m. Walk/run with Isabella and friend
11:00 a.m. Lunch with friends
12:30 p.m. Salvation Army bookstore with friend
2:20 p.m. Drop off friend at her house and head to school to pick up kids
2:52 p.m. Pick up kids
3:30 p.m. Arrive home; kids start homework
4:30 p.m. Homework done; start dinner
6:00 p.m. Dinner
7:00 p.m. Kids get ready for bed
7:15 pm. Reading time
8:00 p.m. Lights out for kids; dishes for me.
9:00 p.m. Bedtime
Wake up and start over!




Monday, March 2, 2009

Whirlwind

What a whirlwind of a month!  It was so much fun!  I got to see so many friends and relatives that I don't get to see that often: David's cousin from Tennessee, my grad school friend from Chicago, my high school friend from DC, my sister and her boyfriend, my entire family at my little sister's bridal shower in Brownsville.  I love it!

In preparation for our company, I kept trying to clean our guest bathroom.  I tried everything on the shower curtain - bleach, tylex mold and mildew remover, soft scrub and still the thing would not get completely clean.  I finally gave up with our last guest and went out and bought a new shower curtain.  In the process of cleaning the shower curtain, however, I discovered the best way to clean my tub.  I had also tried all of the chemicals mentioned above, plus I tried toilet bowl cleaner and the soap scum stayed there.  The day before our last guest arrived, I sprayed the curtain with Tylex Soap Scum remover and accidentally spilled the bottle into the tub.  The solution splattered all  over the tub and then Ta Da!  The soap scum started coming off.  Hallellujah!  Surely, I have cleaned that tub before, but for the life of me, I could not recall what I had used to remove the soap scum (probably because the thing only gets cleaned when we have guests coming to see us).  Anyway, it was a good discovery.  

Yes, I can't believe it either -- I am wasting a post to talk about Tylex!  :)  TTYL.  




Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Capitol 10K

I'm starting to realize that posts can be short.  Why did it take me so long to figure that out?  

So I have signed up for the Austin Capitol 10K.  It is a six mile run/walk.  I can now walk three miles in less than an hour.  I am hoping to be able to run part of the way, but have yet to try out the training method cousin Kathy recommended - the Galloway Method.  We are going out again tomorrow and I will try it then.  The objective is to rest after a few minutes of jogging.  I can jog for two minutes and then walk for 1 minute.  That is the plan for tomorrow.  Wish me luck.  

Isabella slept all night in her new bed.  Woohoo!  She did wake up much earlier than she normally would if she were sleeping right next to me, but that's ok.  It just means she will actually nap now. Woohoo!  

I must go to sleep soon.  My friend Cindy is coming into town tomorrow afternoon.  I am so excited!  Friday is my friend Julie's 40th birthday.  Then Saturday I am headed to Brownsville for my sister's bridal shower.  I am coming back on Sunday and get to hang out with my friend for one more day.  Yippee!!!   

Ok, goodnight.  TTYL.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Firsts and Lasts

I shouldn't drink coke on Tuesdays when I have lunch with my dear friend Renee.  I am so sensitive to caffeine these days that one little coke will keep me up very late into the night. Hence, this post at this very late hour.

Not sure what I am feeling right now.  Part of me is happy that Isabella is sleeping upstairs in Natalia's room in her toddler bed and part of me is sad because my baby is not sleeping in bed with us anymore.  :(  I am going to miss waking up right next to her.  Who am I kidding?  She's really the one that wakes ME up.  Her first words every morning are:  "Mama, agua."  She says this in a very dramatic voice as if she's really dying of thirst.  I love it.  Maybe she'll cry in the middle of the night and I'll run up there just to bring her back down to bed with us.  Knowing that this is our last baby changes the way I feel about her "firsts."  Her "firsts" are now my "lasts." 

Well, that sentiment was short-lived.  She is up and screaming for "mama".  TTYL.

Monday, February 23, 2009

Spring is in the air!

I love, LOVE this time of year.  Everything is coming back to life.  The trees are budding. The crocuses are blooming.  The sun comes in early into my kitchen window over the sink.  The mornings are crisp and the day is breezy but not warm.  This weather only lasts a couple of months and then we are back to scorching heat.  A few years back it got up to 108 degrees one day in September.  That is HOT.

I am not sure why I haven't been writing as much in here.  I have been suffering from allergies quite a bit and have had the sniffles and an on-and-off cough the last two months.  We have also had several friends and relatives visit.  I love having company.   And school activities have been taking up a lot of our evenings as well.  Those are my excuses anyway.

Last week I had one day that I chose to stay home all day with Isabella -- no errands, no trips anywhere, no TV, just Isabella and me.  It was awesome.  We played.  We cleaned.  We ate together.  It was so much fun.  I am going to have to save a day each week to do just that.

I have also been busy thinking about next fall and what my options are.  My resume is all set and I have made a couple of contacts with some folks in the field in which I am interested in working.  I have also been looking at job lists and am happy to report that there are many jobs out there in my area of expertise.  Phew.   

However, the biggest job-related epiphany came from my friend Jessica who was here for a conference last week.  She is a dear friend from grad school.  She suggested I start my own consulting company.   I thought she was joking at first, but the more she talked, the more it made sense.  I am so excited!  Having my own company will give me the flexibility I need to take on projects as I can handle given my kids' schedules.  Thank you, Jessica, for opening my eyes to this option!

It feels like my professional life is coming back to life again and life is good.  TTYL.